Four Years later.....

Hello Friends and Family!

Today is October 8th, 2010. It is four years since Meghan left us. I think about those "lost" four years with her....and my heart just aches for her touch and her hands. But I also think about the almost eight years we had with her....and I am so very blessed. One of my favorite kids - Andrew Delevett, posted on his facebook about the dashes between your birth and your death.....the dashes are what is important. This is so very true....but I wonder about the invisible dashes that come after their death date. I have learned in this journey...that there may be many more dashes after....we just don't see them.

So many people said after Meghan died, that they will always remember her, and what an impact she had on their lives. I hoped that people meant that, and were not just saying that.....and I have learned....all of you haven't forgotten....and she really did touch peoples lives then, and she still does now. I can't possibly, today, write those all down....but she continues to change lives in people close to me....and those that I havn't even met. Meghan was a gift to us....for a short time, but she was and continues to be one of my greatest gifts of my life.

I think back four years ago....and remember Tracy telling me....all you have to do is breathe. I thought that was the most difficult thing to be able to do.....imagine...breathing comes naturally....but it seemed like I couldn't even do that. But I did.....and I continue too. I have said so many times...that I don't like this road that I have been given to walk......and you know.....there are points in that road that I hate....but the rest of the road I have walked on....and continue to walk on, is pretty wonderful. I have learned instead of looking down that dark road....(that sometimes looked like there was no light at the end of it) with fear, I look down that bright road...with hope and with stronger strides than I did four years ago. I didn't think it was possible...but it was, and it is. And I truly believe that the only way I was able to walk along that road of loss, anger, fear, heartache and utter dispair....was because I had our Holy Lord.....holding me up and guiding me along this road and I had so many of you......walking beside me also! I treasure and love all of you.....that may read this or may not...that is cool either way! Remember I write this...just to get it out of my heart:):)

I had my tears last night...and today...I just want to honor Meghan....and all the children.....that have gone before their parents. I don't want this to be a sad day for anyone.....I know it is sad not having our Meghan here....but it is sad everyday. So go about your day....and remember her big blue eyes and her snotty attitude at times....but most of all remember her love of everyone......for she loved everyone....and her love of Jesus. I am so proud of her and so proud of her faith....even at such a young age. Many of us wiser and older people....could be more like her....For Jesus said..."Let the children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it: Mark 10: 14-15

I love you Meghan - today and everyday....I miss your sweet smile, your sweet sweet hands....and your hugs and kisses. Know that everyday here.....is a day closer to you.

I love you all!

LeAnn