Hello everyone!

Been alot going on the past few weeks....mainly just keeping real busy. I just wanted to post a guick note....Today is Glen and my 18th wedding anniversary!

Woke up this morning....remembering that day....smiling. I also had such a heavy heart also. I remember that day.....our beginning...we had such hopes and dreams. I thought we would conquer the world. I always wanted three children....he was hoping two would be enough:):) When I go to weddings now......as most of you probably do, you remember your own. You cry....and you pray for their future. You pray for happiness, love and a long life for them. I remember thinking those very thoughts for us 18 years ago.

Glen was my best friend then and he is my best friend now. I have been so blessed to have him by my side all this time. We have had so many joyful times......and a few sad ones. Through it all....he has been by my side....holding me up when I needed him to...and walking beside me (well....really always behind me....cause I walk so darn fast) when I could walk on my own. The Lord has blessed my life more than I can even express when he brought us together.....with the help of our Fairy Godmother - Mrs. Neumann!

When I mentioned earlier about having a heavy heart....I'm sure you know why. When we took our vows...through good times and bad times........I never thought the bad times, could be so bad. We had such hopes and dreams.....and I am just starting to believe in dreams and a future that will be filled with new hopes and dreams. Glen's cup is always 1/2 full.......and I am so very thankful for that....for far to often, mine is 1/2 empty. He is always my sunshine on a cloudy day. God blessed Glen with the patience of a saint and a heart as big as infinity.

Meghan's 11th birthday will be in two days. I remember when she was born...Glen saying to me..."I bet you'll never go away on our Anniversary now....because you won't want to miss Meghan's birthday". He was right. We laughed. This will be our 4th anniversary without Meghan...it gets easier each year....but this day still seems to be overshadowed by the tremendous pain of not having her here. I sometimes can't help but think back and remember us laughing about never going away for an anniversary.......never thinking that something else was planned.

So I guess what I'm trying to express....is that I am so blessed to have Glen with me.....my rock....and also that I have memories of our Anniversary blending with Meghan's birthday....what a blessing those years were. I also feel that as I continue this walk......I can do so and not feel so sad about celebrating the love we have for each other.....it seems like it didn't feel right to be joyful....when there was so much pain in not having Meghan with us. I also want to say I'm so sorry Glen....for the previous years...when I just couldn't be so happy......even when I knew I should be joyful. God brought us together...and through his strength...we are here....four anniversarys later......I am blessed!

I loved you then, love you now.....always have, always will.

Happy Anniversary Bubba! I love you!

Me xxoo